before sunrise

m always grumpy waking up at before sunrise for sahur.its like a mad scramble of pots and pans just before the time to not eat starts. and i have a penchant for getting into squabbles cos put it simply i m lazy of the hassle to get food served on the table. seriously just eat bread cannot ah. wa lau eh. anyway, random things on the first day of sahur/puasa.

#1) was damn dehydrated and thirsty on the first day, felt like a camel who was about to have my period-cos i get damn thristy before-the whole day was damn hot and all i wanted was to drink ribena. and of course i had to pass the ahballing stall and all i wanted was ahballing. and then while trying to find french loaf cos was tasked to cook roti john i saw tar sau piah and from then i wanted to eat tar sau piah...weakness...usually m so not this neh neh. must have been the first day of puasa and the blazing heat.

#2) so for sahur next day forced myself to drink a few glasses of water, while being sulky cos i had to clean up the pots and pans afterwards, and being in semi-dazed stoned state. i stared blankly at the wall gg thru the routine of drinking my water and my mind pandered - so this must how it felt, albeit sliver of a glimmer, of how the POWs during Jap Occupation were tortured by being forced to guzzle gallons of water while their stomaches were trampled on. Torture by water...fascinating.

#3)while moodily washing up all the grease and plates,etc. again my mind pandered how would the feminist of her time, coco would react. wat acerbic retort wud she have spewed. and i could see audrey tatou starring at me with her cynical world- weary face as in the movie.

#4) while gg back under the covers, in the dark i dozily caught sight of my lil sis holding something in her hands on the bed. It was luminous bright red, and glowing in her hands. My first thought, and i seriously believed it for a moment was - eh how come she got a glowing kueh ah pam (sp?) So cool red coloured kueh ah pam, glowing, so clever hide for herself one isit. reminded me of the ah pam cake the chinese sometimes offer to their Gods, placed alongside joss-sticks at the altars and sometimes by the pavements. I oso want to eat!!! even tho i dun really fancy kueh ah pam.
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only after a while did i realise she was holding the alarm clock.